Just wanted to say...

19 days until mine & Jake's 3 year anniversary
20 days until Jake's 21st birthday
23 days until Christmas

25 days until my 18th birthday!

Obama.

So, as everyone already knows, Obama is now our new president.

I have been really getting into this election.

In my PIG class (participation in government) my teacher has been making us watch elections & we have spent more then enough time talking & sharing our opinions on the subject. After watching many elections I decided I really, really like Obama. I think he is a great man & will do our country good. Now this doesn't mean I dont't think McCain is a good man either. He is, but he seems to be following in Bush's foot steps alot, & i'm not too fond of Bush.

I am very proud of Obama, & i think hes going to make a fantastic president for us.

I am also really proud of all the Americans out there who voted for him. 60% of the people who voted for Obama were white, this means alot to me. This shows that this election was not judged so much on race, that people chose our president because of the person he is, not his color.

Our country has come a LONG way from where it was. 50 years ago or so, blacks couldn't even vote, & now we have a black president running the entire United States. it's amazing.

im back!

I haven't been on in a very long time.
I have been really busy with school, homework, & Anthony.
I am out of school today, as I was thursday & friday. This mini vacation has been very relaxing & enjoyable!
We went to an apple festival thing the other day with my dad & step mom. it was alright, but not as I expected. you have to pay a fortune for everything there, plus pay 8 bucks a person to get in. However, I did get some really good pictures of Anthony playing in the pumpkin patch, & a picture done by a professional photographer that was doing pictures there. I'm also very pleased with the way that turned out.
I will put the pictures on here as soon as I get home to upload them on the computer!
Also before I forget I wanna give a BIG THANKS to Scrappy Jessie for all the wonderful wizard of oz goodies. I loved them all so much.
I hope you enjoy the stuff we mailed out to you Jessie!
So I have been staying at Jakes since a few days before we left for Chicago & Kansas. so its been about 2 months. I have been enjoying my time with Jake & Anthony, & enjoying the quiet house, & the help with Anthony from Jake while trying to do my homework, but I also miss my mom, earl & the kids very much. THATS RIGHT EARL, I SAID IT!!!
Once Jake gets a job I will probably be living back at home.(well maybe, seeing as were moving about 2 blocks or less from Jakes house) I am looking forward to seeing everyone again, I'm just very worried about getting too stressed out there while trying to watch anthony & do homework.
I bet momma will help me out though! :)
School has been going good. I got all A's & B's & one low D in math, however my math teacher put on the progress report that I'm a very hard working student & seek help when needed.
1/2 a semester done, now 3 & 1/2 left to go!
Me & Jake are throwing a halloween party here at his house on October 24th & i'm very excited for it. So far we have 50 people who we invited, which doesnt seem like much, but Jakes house is a one story home, not very big!
It will be a good time though. Jake has been picking up all this scary halloween stuff, while I'm begging for the cute stuff! So we compromised & decided he can get all the scary decorations, as long as I can make some cute little cupckaes & goodie bags for the kids. I have already bought all the treats for the goodie bags, & made them! Can't tell I'm excited much, huh??
Also, Momma I'm so glad your feeling better!! :)

Finally home!

we got back yesterday from Maryland. All our travels are done now. We had a great time everywhere we went.However, we are all totally exhausted & glad to be back home.
Now I start school on Thursday.

I will have pictures up as soon as i get them uploaded to the computer.

A big thanks to everyone who let us stay at their house!
(Aunt Cathy, Aunt Robyn, & Grandma Leanna)

Chicago, Kansas, Maryland!!!!

Jake & I have been wanting to go to Kansas for a very long time, especially me, since I haven't seen my family in 12 years. Well we finally decided to go! We figured we should go now while we have the money & the opportunity. We are leaving on August 15th to go to Chicago for a day to see my Aunt Cathy & her family, I'm very excited!!!! It's going to take about 15 hours to get there. & then we leave the next day for Kansas, which is about another 15 hours. We're leaving Kansas on the 27th, & arriving back to New York on the 28th. & on the 30th we leave for Maryland, & return on September 2nd. We're going to be VERY busy, but I'm SO excited. In Kansas I hope to spend lots of time just spending time with the family & getting to know everyone again. I also hope to go school shopping with my cousin Jessica. When I go back to school no one will have the same clothes as me!
Anyway, I'm counting down the days,

16 days till Chicago,
18 days till Kansas
31 days till Maryland.



I'M SO EXCITED!!!!!

Happy Birthday Anthony Daniel!

I'm a little late but Anthony had his first birthday on Monday! His first party was on Sunday & it went pretty well. We had my family there & a few close friends. He got SO many gifts! My English teacher also stopped by to drop off a gift & say hello, but he couldn't stay more then 5 minutes. I was really glad he came though! On Anthony's actual birthday we took him to a park & then out to Denny's for his first real meal, he had macaroni & cheese & mashed potatoes. He loved them!!! We are also having 2 more birthday parties this weekend for Jake's family. By then I think I'll be all partied out till next year! I also have NO idea what we're going to do with all the presents! he got so many just from me & Jake & his first party. Anthony loved the cake so much he cried when I said no more. He ate an entire cupcake & still wanted more!


Anthonys cars cake

sitting in his new chair on his birthday

playing with his new bath toys on his bday



at the park for his bday

Pictures

We got Anthony's pictures done a few weeks ago & got them back yesterday. I'm very pleased with how they turned out. A great photographer, Unique did them. Unique is an awesome guy, he came to Jake's to do the pictures because he feels the kids would do better taking the pictures if they're in an environment their familiar with. & he's very patient! He stayed at Jake's house for 3 1/2 hours and took over 500 pictures!! of course we didn't get all 500. he gave us a few 8x10 & a few 5x7 & then he gave us a disc with about 35 or so pictures on it that he edited & stuff. I'm so amazed at his work! Here are some pictures:

I Love them!! Hope you do too!

Been busy..

I haven't been on in about 2 weeks. I've been pretty busy with the 4Th of July weekend & trying to plan 3 birthday parties for Anthony! We're having one party for my family (mom, dad, step parents, brothers, sister, & sister in laws) one for Jake's Dads side of the family, & one for Jake's Moms side of the family, which friends are also invited to because his moms side is so small. We have to do separate ones for Jake's family because his parents are in the middle of getting divorced & his dads side won't have anything to do with his mom, or family. so we're having 3! I'm very excited but stressed too. I want Anthony to have the PERFECT 1st birthday, even though he'll never remember, he only turns one once. I want to spoil him so bad & buy him EVERYTHING but Jake says not allot if I want to go to Kansas this August. So I guess I can't argue!! We're doing the Cars theme from the movie "cars" that came out last year. I'm so excited!!!

Anthony & Jake on the 4Th of July

Anthony & Jake watching the fireworks

Me & Anthony also just got sick yesterday. My stomach has really been bothering me & we took Anthony to the doctors this morning & he has a cold & eye infection. I feel so bad, he sounds terrible & his left eye is so nasty looking! He's still the same old happy Anthony though, always making the best out of everything! that is the thing I love most about him, he's so good natured & always happy no matter what. That's one thing I hope stays with him as he grows older. Everybody notices it & loves that about him.



Anthonys eye infection

Still happy!

Oh yeah! I just remembered, I was told by a friend the other day that I "spoil" Anthony too much. Me & this...... "friend" went out to eat the other day with a few friends for the other friends graduation & this "friend" also has a baby that is 13 days younger than Anthony. I've never been happy with her parenting since she's been pregnant. She doesn't make the smartest, or best decisions & some of the things she does really bothers me, but I try to ignore them & keep my mouth shut. Well while out to eat the other day I bought Anthony a bowl of apple sauce & she bought her son a bowl of ice cream! keep in mind he's only 10 months old! I guess a little ice cream won't hurt, but she tried to tell me I'm crazy for still feeding Anthony formula! her doctor told her "as long as her son is eating meat (which as long as he has teeth he can eat ..?!?!?!) then he can be on whole milk" well I personally think she's absolutely NUTS! Anthony eats baby food, & yes he is still on formula (until he is a year old, says the doctor) but i don't think at 11months he needs to be eating meat & whole milk!! well anyway, in the middle of dinner she looks at me feeding Anthony apple sauce, & scraping the salt off the saltine crackers & said "Lexie you spoil him too much" I was a little shocked at first, & asked how. She told me that when he gets older I'm going to have a really hard time with Anthony because I spoil him too much she told me that when we go to the store he's going to throw a fit because he wants something & I'm going to give in. "I spoil him wayy too much" well this just set me off, I politely smiled & said, I don't think you can spoil a baby. & left it at that. mean while, I'm screaming at her in my head. Maybe it's not a big deal, but for somebody who feeds her son ice cream for dinner & hasn't had her child on formula since 9 or 10 months old, to tell me I spoil my son really ticked me off!
But I guess I'd rather people say I spoil my son then have people say I'm a bad mom.

Anyway, Anthony is really trying to get down the stairs, I suppose I'll go "spoil" him & make sure he doesn't fall down them!!

Wordles

My Mom showed me how to do these & I thought they were pretty cool!



This is of Me, Jake, Anthony, My parents, Jakes parents, My brothers & sister, Jakes brother, & My sister in laws, & all my neices & nephews.

Smoking

I have been a smoker since I was 14. I quit for 9 months while I was pregnant & started back up again about 10 months ago. My mom & Dad don't have too much of a problem with it, they don't like it but they allow it.. As long as I go outside to smoke. I have always loved my cigarettes, I don't know what it is about them I have just always really enjoyed them. Which is why it was so hard for me not to start back up after Anthony was born. However, I have made a promise to Jake, my Mom & Dad that I will quit in September when school starts back up. This sounds ridiculous to everyone to wait until then. Why not just quit now? I think it would be allot easier to quit when I am a senior in school, & very busy. Right now it's summer & I'm home all day & outside. So I think it would be harder to quit now. I am not looking forward to this one bit, & am really hoping I can keep this promise. It's going to be very difficult but I guess it's just something I have to do.

I have recently noticed allot of people giving me dirty looks when they see that I am smoking, especially older people. Allot of people that know me think it's scummy, or "not right" that I smoke because I have a kid now. But the way I look at it is, how is it harming him if I don't smoke around him? & I wash my hands after every cigarette so he doesn't have to smell it. I also have promised myself since I started back up that I would quit before Anthony got old enough to realize what it is. Hoping if mom & dad don't smoke, he won't want to either. I don't see the harm in it.

I think allot of the reason I enjoy smoking so much is just the 5 minute break I get to relax & be by myself. I love the quiet time & it kinda gives me an excuse to get away for a minute.

Anyway the whole point of posting this blog was because I don't understand why it's such a big deal that I smoke cigarettes when I have a kid, if I'm no wheres near him when I do...? Does anyone else think I'm being "immature" or a "bad parent" because of this??

About Me

My names Alexis & I'm 17 years young. I have the most amazing fiance & family a girl could ask for, also I have a 10 1/2 month old son, Anthony Daniel, who has literally saved my life. I decided to start this blog because today was my last day of school & I'm going to need something to keep myself sane while home all day taking care of the baby.
My fiance Jake, whom I've been with for 2 1/2 years is one of the best things that's happened to me. We met when I was 14 & a freshman & he was 17 & a senior. We started dating soon after we met & knew right away we were in love. Jake has helped me so much, & I could never show how thankful I am.
When me & Jake first started dating I was a wreck. I was failing every class in school & partied way too much. School was defiantly not my first priority. I was in a new school, with new friends & new drugs all around me... Fortunately I stuck to one one. I had lost almost every one of my friends from middle school & usually hung out with the older kids or my older brothers. As hard as it is for me to say this, my brothers had a big impact on my drug use. My brothers, especially Daniel who is 4 years older then me, has always been my biggest role model. I've always looked up to him & wanted to be just like him. I knew he smoked, so I did. I knew he did bad in school, so I did. Daniel has always been my best friend, and still to this day is. They are the ones who got me to start smoking, but once I started I didn't stop. I had just got out of a crappy relationship, it was good for awhile & then turned bad. I was in love. He was my first, & I swore he'd be my only. we were together a few months shy of a year but we were really in love. Then one night in September of 2005 he told me we couldn't be together, he liked one of my friends & it just couldn't work between us. I was devastated & took 20 Tylenol. The next thing I knew I was up in the middle of the night throwing up, & then I woke up in the morning pale as ever & sicker then a dog. I went to school & acted as if nothing happened. Fortunately my friend on the bus noticed I couldn't stay awake & I looked really ill. I told her that I had over dosed on Tylenol & I literally felt like I was dying. We went & told a teacher & immediately had an ambulance at school. I can remember one of the paramedics saying "you're such a beautiful girl, why?" I went to the hospital & was told I had liver damage. I was also told I had a chance of not making it. I stayed in Albany Medical Center for 5 days & got transferred to Ellis Hospital for 5 days. By some miracle I made it out alive & healthy. But after that, I smoked every day, sometimes more then once a day, and had made weed the biggest part of my life. That's all I cared about & nothing else. Then Jake came around in December of 2005. At first he didn't care that I smoked, because it was only with my brothers & he knew I wouldn't get in trouble or anything. But after going to my brothers every single weekend to smoke, instead of spending time with him, he got sick of it. I wasn't myself when I was high, & I got a kick out of arguing. After a few months Jake told me I had to choose, having the time of my life every weekend with my brothers while being stoned out of my mind for days strait at a time, or him. As sad as it is, I didn't know what I wanted. I was so used to partying all the time, & I loved it. & Jake was just my boyfriend, we had only been together a few months.. I didn't figure we would last anyway. I was so used to being screwed over, I figured he'd do the same. I tried quitting a few times but I loved it too much. Although people say you can't be addicted to marijuana, being an old user, I can honestly say I was an addict. If I didn't smoke for a day I felt depressed & tired, then I would smoke & I was happy as ever.
Finally, I don't know what happened, I guess Jake had convinced me he loved me & I was going down the wrong path. I decided to give up marijuana & be with him. I have now been sober for about 2 years & I don't miss it. I still didn't do good in school, & didn't care. Then in October of 2006 I found out I was pregnant. Immediately I got my grades up to mid-8Os's & Anthony was born in July of 2007. Anthony saved my life. School was a joke to me & I swore I didn't need it. When I found out I was pregnant with him I decided to step up & take responsibility. The first step was to get my grades up, so not only can I support & spoil him, but I can be a role model as well. Since then I've passed all my classes, & haven't gotten in trouble at all.
Anthony has made me mature & look at everything different. Although I had him young, & didn't give myself a chance to be a kid. I wouldn't change it for anything. He's the cutest little boy I've ever seen, & he's a great baby, not to mention a mama's boy! His smile never fails to brighten my day, no matter how bad it's been. & thanks to my mom, I've still been able to be a kid. She still lets me go out & party every once in awhile, & she watches Anthony while I'm at school. I can't express how thankful I am for having her as a wonderful mother & friend & I thank God every day for making her my mommy.

Jake & Anthony swimming a few weeks ago.

My Mama & Anthony when he was just born <3